Bella Hadid Drugs & On Past Depression: “I Would Cry Every Single Morning”

Bella Hadid Drugs Use

“I feel guilty for being able to live this incredible life, have the opportunities that I do, but somehow still be depressed. It doesn’t make sense.” Supermodel Bella Hadid is in a good place. She recently opened up about her private battle with depression at the Vogue Fashion Festival in Paris. The in-demand model describes feeling conflicted about feeling depressed in the midst of a thriving career that saw her working with fashion greats like the late Karl Lagerfield and Tom Ford. “For a while, I just didn’t want to talk about it, and I’ve gone through a lot in the past few years with my health,” she said. “I feel guilty for being able to live this incredible life, have the opportunities that I do, but somehow still be depressed. It doesn’t make sense.”

Emotional Instability

Depression can affect anyone, regardless of social status or economic background. Despite her storybook life, Hadid was struggling with depression symptoms. “I would cry every single morning, I would cry during my lunch breaks, I would cry before I slept,” she said. “I was very emotionally unstable for a while when I was working 14-hour days for four months straight as an 18-year-old. I think I just wanted to breathe a little bit. And so it kind of put me in a spiral.” Last month, Hadid took to Instagram to give a spotlight to those living with depression: She wrote, “Yesterday was mental health awareness day. A struggle that I know a majority of us have dealt with in the past or [are] dealing with currently. And if not, you probably know someone who is…something that I have been dealing with for a few years but [is] finally at a point where it doesn’t consume me as much as before.” While Hadid is doing better, she still has “bad days along with the good, but [I’m] grateful and proud of myself to be in the place that I am today.” Hadid decided that speaking out about living with depression was important. “I feel like I would be doing a disservice to myself if I didn’t speak about something such as mental health, because that’s pretty much what I’ve been going through for the past five years very intensely,” Hadid said. “Now we’re here and we’re good, but it took a while.”

Gigi’s Anxiety

Gigi Hadid, Bella’s older sister, has also spoken out about mental health, specifically dealing with anxiety. During a panel for Reebok, Gigi detailed how being in the public eye can take its toll on your psyche. She described how the pressure to live up to this perfect image has left her with anxious feelings. To combat the pressure, Gigi has taken social media breaks and uses positive affirmations to help her cope. Hadid wrote on Instagram that she still has “bad days along with the good, but [I’m] grateful and proud of myself to be in the place that I am today.” Supermodel Bella Hadid turned 23 on October 9, one day before World Mental Health Day, and she used the occasion to speak out about the importance of taking care of your mental health.

Hadid wrote on Instagram that she still has “bad days along with the good, but [I’m] grateful and proud of myself to be in the place that I am today.”

In an Instagram post, she wrote, “Yesterday was mental health awareness day. A struggle that I know a majority of us have dealt with in the past or [are] dealing with currently. And if not, you probably know someone who is…something that I have been dealing with for a few years but [is] finally at a point where it doesn’t consume me as much as before.” https://www.instagram.com/p/B3fOqawgrC9/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link Hadid still has “bad days along with the good, but [I’m] grateful and proud of myself to be in the place that I am today.”

In her post, Hadid included a statement from mental health advocate Hannah Blum, which read, “Even on those rainy days where it feels like the world is covered in grey, do not lose hope, because there has never been a storm that lasted forever. The sun is always present; it too has to find a way through the clouds.” Late last year, Hadid was asked by Vogue what she considered her biggest success, and she replied, “Probably my health and mental state right now.” Hadid was recovering from a bout with Lyme disease, and she told People, “This year I really just feel like I am myself again and happy and healthy in all aspects of my life.”

Social Media & Mental Health

Hadid then addressed how social media can affect your mental health (Hadid has over 26 million followers on Instagram). “I would like to add that everything you see online or through social media is not always what it seems,” she continued. “The happiness we create online while being sad in real life makes no sense, but sometimes it just seems easier to live within your sadness rather than talk about it. If it wasn’t for the people closest to me, I probably would have still been in that place, and for that, I am forever thankful to them.” In closing, Hadid wrote, “If you are reading this and feel like there’s no light at the end of the tunnel, there is…and I see you! You are strong, you are good enough and you DESERVE to be happy!”