Once I got sober again, I’d like to say my behavior towards men was completely different, that I only had sex when I was one hundred percent sure I wanted to, that I didn’t judge and hate.
Tag: AA
Religion, Secularism, and Spirituality – How Modern AA Gets It Wrong
AA’s founders did not intend for AA to be religious, and unlike many modern-day members, they embraced a broad view of a Higher Power.
But I’m Depressed, Not Addicted
I was there to treat my depression. I couldn’t tell the truth. I couldn’t say I got smashed almost every night, whiskey whistling through my veins, thinning my blood and seeping into my brain.
Sobbing with Sir Elton While Watching “Rocketman”
John’s seeking earned him fame and financial success and love from millions of fans, but it wasn’t enough for his emotionally starved heart.
A Newborn Kitten, 12 Steps, and One Night of Fatherhood
When I put him in his makeshift little crib I had the first of several revelations that night: “When you were using you probably would have let that kitten die.” At that moment I fully embraced the experience.
You Are Not My Father
I had spent my whole life seeking certainty and security and this break exposed the foolhardiness of that quest. Here was the raw slate of rock bottom once again.
AA Takes Center Stage in "Love in Recovery" from BBC Radio
No one is well-behaved here – they cross-talk, cheat, gossip, fight – but they love each other in the way only a group of alcoholics who have bared their souls to each other can.
Everybody Knows: 10 Lessons from 10 Years of Sobriety Without AA
In early sobriety, someone told me that since I’d gotten sober without AA, I wasn’t an alcoholic, and that since I didn’t go to meetings and ate the occasional mushroom, I wasn’t sober.
Sex Work Made Recovery Possible for Me
The idea that someone would pay to be around me when I had spent my life feeling worthless changed my self-perception forever.
5 Messes I’ve Had to Clean Up in Recovery
When I’m on top of my 10th step game, it goes something like this: Sorry, my bad. How can I fix it? The apologies come easily, and I promptly follow up with offers to make up for all harms done. But I’m not always on top of my game.