This insatiable hunger to feel scared has almost completely jaded me, and now I have no idea what to do with this realization. As a kid, I was scared of literally everything; as a teenager I was perpetually living in all forms of fear — of the real world and the imagined — as a result… Continue reading Bingeing on Horror No Longer Works, What Do I Do?
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Best Indie Films of 2018: The Fix Picks
In early recovery I had moments where I was sure I could not stay sober for one more minute. That’s when my friends offered sound advice: Don’t think, and go to movies. In early recovery I found myself inundated with obsessive worries scurrying around in my head. It was repetitive dark noise that I ached… Continue reading Best Indie Films of 2018: The Fix Picks
No Vacation from Recovery: A Packing List
Recovery cannot be left to chance but requires planning, even—and maybe especially—on vacation with its temptations: tropical drinks, laissez-faire schedule, swim-up bars, and late nights. For a long time, when my bipolar disorder, alcoholism, and eating disorder were out of control, I believed that the geographic cure, specifically travel, was the antidote to all my… Continue reading No Vacation from Recovery: A Packing List