How would I turn “my will and my life” over to the Earth which, as beautiful and awe-inspiring as it is, surely doesn’t care whether I get clean or don’t? When I was early in 12-step recovery and trying to get my head and heart around Step Two (as if Step One hadn’t been mind-blowing… Continue reading Nature as Power Greater
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Eddie Pepitone: From Falling Down Drunk to Sober Stand Up
Comedy is totally addictive! It hits the part of the brain that drugs do. The love me love me I’m home I’m home part (that is when it goes well). You feel exhilarated because you are the center of attention. I was a few months out of my second rehab facility when a friend and… Continue reading Eddie Pepitone: From Falling Down Drunk to Sober Stand Up
Do You Want To Know What I’m Thinking? Me Neither
I gain peace when I choose not to suffer. It isn’t easy, but neither is being miserable. I’ve got a big mouth, a lot of opinions, and little hesitation about expressing them—even when I haven’t done the homework. No matter how long I’ve been sober, how many meetings I attend, how many times I work… Continue reading Do You Want To Know What I’m Thinking? Me Neither
How I Conquered My Relationship Insecurity
I didn’t engage in behaviors like calling or texting multiple times—if anything, I did the opposite, out of fear of being perceived as needy—but the thoughts alone, their irrationality and all-consuming anxiety, caused me a lot of pain. Fear of abandonment, jealousy, and general insecurity in romantic relationships leads many in the dating scene to… Continue reading How I Conquered My Relationship Insecurity
Owning My Space as a Woman in 12-Step Programs
I am totally within my rights if I say no, you may not sit there, and no, I don’t want a hug and I don’t want a cup of coffee and just back the fuck off because I have mace in my purse. Several days after I took my last drink, I was detoxing at… Continue reading Owning My Space as a Woman in 12-Step Programs