It meant eating past the point of comfort. It meant not letting yourself feel that high, that addictive strength that filled your stomach when you kept it empty of everything else.
Tag: childhood
My Family Is My Greatest Disappointment
Even though my aunt knows I’ve scrubbed my stepmom from my life in an attempt to stop and reverse years of psychological abuse, manipulation, and mind fuckery, it’s a reality she refuses to accept.
Memories Like Velvet: Fear and Panic in Childhood
Knowing that it’s “an emotional thing” doesn’t help much when I’m going through the anxiety and the terror and the fear in me, wondering if it will ever go away.
God Hates Pikachu and He Also Killed My Daddy
My higher power doesn’t want me sticking a needle in my arm. For me today, it’s as simple as that. I didn’t want to unpack this story so soon. My aim was to share my experience with getting and staying sober in a dry and witty way, do that for a while with you, maybe… Continue reading God Hates Pikachu and He Also Killed My Daddy
Lineages of Addiction: Interview with torrin a. greathouse, a Trans Poet in Recovery
“I always compare myself now to a night when I was drinking and I looked in the mirror. I saw a lie, wearing a suit and full beard, and…I tried to kill myself.” A point on a map is the product of two dimensions, the x and the y, or longitude and latitude. For example,… Continue reading Lineages of Addiction: Interview with torrin a. greathouse, a Trans Poet in Recovery
How I Conquered My Relationship Insecurity
I didn’t engage in behaviors like calling or texting multiple times—if anything, I did the opposite, out of fear of being perceived as needy—but the thoughts alone, their irrationality and all-consuming anxiety, caused me a lot of pain. Fear of abandonment, jealousy, and general insecurity in romantic relationships leads many in the dating scene to… Continue reading How I Conquered My Relationship Insecurity