I lay on this bed encased by these walls. sober now. I can feel the pain of all my flaws. Peaceful and lost in the illusion I slept thru all my loved ones’ cries. Even her kind eyes couldn’t keep me from wanting to end my life. Caged outside my mind also brings confinement inside.… Continue reading An Addicts Mind
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Strung Out: An Interview with Erin Khar
When I was in a 12-step program, I had so much shame… Some people seemed pissed off when you relapsed. I get that it’s upsetting, but have a little compassion.
Heroin detox timeline: How long to detox from heroin?
Heroin detox usually peaks at about 72 hours after loast dose and resolves within a week. However, some symptoms can linger for weeks or months afterwards. A
Heroin detox timeline: How long to detox from heroin?
Heroin detox usually peaks at about 72 hours after loast dose and resolves within a week. However, some symptoms can linger for weeks or months afterwards. A
How Suboxone Helped Me Until I Could Help Myself
I felt confident that I had no desire to use opioids again, not because the Suboxone had eliminated my cravings, but because I had changed my life. The pain I worked so hard to anesthetize with heroin had been addressed.
My Journey from Heroin to Prison
As soon as I was out of prison, it took one argument with a girlfriend for me to go running right back into the arms of the one that always made me feel better: heroin. I have been a man of many realities. I’ve been a son, a student, a friend, a lover, a brother… Continue reading My Journey from Heroin to Prison
Kicking Heroin Cold Turkey Changed My Life
Nobody ever tells you how it feels, especially for the first time. This was the most pain and anguish I had ever experienced in my life, and I had given it my best shot, but there was really no point in going on. There were three of us. Eric was dashing and handsome, with eyes… Continue reading Kicking Heroin Cold Turkey Changed My Life
God Hates Pikachu and He Also Killed My Daddy
My higher power doesn’t want me sticking a needle in my arm. For me today, it’s as simple as that. I didn’t want to unpack this story so soon. My aim was to share my experience with getting and staying sober in a dry and witty way, do that for a while with you, maybe… Continue reading God Hates Pikachu and He Also Killed My Daddy
Anatomy of a Relapse
When my father died, I hadn’t been to a meeting in over a year. I had no active knowledge of how to apply healthy coping mechanisms to a devastating situation so I just went back to what I knew: opioids and numbness. Two years ago I wrote a controversial feature for The Fix, “I Take… Continue reading Anatomy of a Relapse
Dopesick: An Interview with Beth Macy
It takes the average user eight years and five to six treatment attempts just to achieve one year of sobriety. And in an era of fentanyl and other even stronger synthetic opioids, many users don’t have eight years. As recently as a few years ago, the opioid crisis could be referred to as a “silent… Continue reading Dopesick: An Interview with Beth Macy