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  • Alanis Morissette Describes Third Bout With Postpartum Depression

    Alanis Morissette Describes Third Bout With Postpartum Depression

    “I have been here before. I know there is another side. And the other side is greater than my PPD-riddled-temporarily-adjusted-brain could have ever imagined.”

    Singer-songwriter Alanis Morissette is in the midst of her third bout with postpartum depression—but she was better prepared for it this time around, she revealed in a recent blog post.

    “I wasn’t sure if I would have postpartum depression/anxiety this time around,” said Morissette, who gave birth to her third child, Winter Mercy Morissette-Treadway, on August 8.

    Morissette had previously shared that she struggled with depression after the births of her son Ever Imre in 2010 and daughter Onyx Solace in 2016.

    “I have been here before. I know there is another side. And the other side is greater than my PPD-riddled-temporarily-adjusted-brain could have ever imagined,” she wrote in her October 6 post on her website. “I saw how things got richer after I came through it the last two times.”

    Learning From Past Experiences

    This time around, the “Ironic” singer was better prepared for the impending “postpartum tar-drenched trenches” that came with sleep deprivation, hormones, physical pain, isolation, anxiety, marriage and “all kinds of PTSD triggers,” she wrote.

    “There is so much more support this time. I knew better so I set it up to win as much as I could beforehand,” she wrote. “Support. Food. Friends. Sun. Bio-identical hormones and SSRIs at the ready… PPD is still a sneaky monkey with a machete—working its way through my psyche and body and days and thoughts and blood work levels.”

    Morissette described the anticipation of PPD ahead of Winter’s birth in a previous interview with SELF from June. “I have said to my friends, I want you to not necessarily go by the words I’m saying and as best as I can, I’ll try to be honest, but I can’t personally rely on the degree of honesty if I reference the last two experiences.”

    History Of Depression

    She revealed in the same interview that she had a history of depression, so while PPD was no joke, it was a somewhat familiar experience for her.

    “For me I would just wake up and feel like I was covered in tar and it wasn’t the first time I’d experienced depression so I just thought ‘Oh well, this feels familiar, I’m depressed, I think.’ And then simultaneously, my personal history of depression where it was so normalized for me to be in the quicksand, as I call it, or in the tar. It does feel like tar, like everything feels heavy.”

    Morissette added that her nature of “over-giving, over-serving, over-do-ing, over-over-ing”—i.e. her “work addiction”—set an unsustainable standard for her after each birth.

    She also noted, “This culture is not set up to honor women properly after birth,” seemingly referencing the lack of priority given to allowing women a healthy period of recovery and bonding after giving birth in the United States.

    “I see it changing, which is so heartening,” she added, “but the general way is bereft of the honoring and tenderness and attunement and village-ness that postpartum deeply warrants.”

    View the original article at thefix.com

  • Alanis Morissette Talks Postpartum Depression, Miscarriage

    Alanis Morissette Talks Postpartum Depression, Miscarriage

    “Not singularly relying on myself to diagnose myself is key, because the first time around I waited,” the singer said about postpartum depression.

    Singer Alanis Morissette is planning ahead for how to deal with postpartum depression when she welcomes her third child in a few months.

    “Not singularly relying on myself to diagnose myself is key, because the first time around I waited,” she said in an interview with SELF.

    Morissette and her husband have an eight-year-old and an almost three-year-old. After both pregnancies, Morissette said that she felt depressed. Because of her history with the condition, she immediately recognized what was happening.

    “For me I would just wake up and feel like I was covered in tar and it wasn’t the first time I’d experienced depression so I just thought ‘Oh, well, this feels familiar, I’m depressed, I think,’” Morissette said. “And then simultaneously, my personal history of depression where it was so normalized for me to be in the quicksand, as I call it, or in the tar. It does feel like tar, like everything feels heavy.”

    Morissette thought because she had overcome depression before she could do so again. In the past, doing service through her songs and connecting with audience members helped her heal. However, that didn’t work during her postpartum episodes.

    “I would just think, ‘Oh I’m just going to go out into the world and serve and then I’m going to feel better,’ but that didn’t do it. And then I had my various forms of self-medicating [that also didn’t help]. So, creativity’s not doing it, tequila’s not doing it…and I even sang about it,” Morissette said.

    Eventually, she reached out to a doctor for help. This time, she is planning ahead, asking friends and loved ones to keep an eye on her and connect her with help when they are concerned, even if she insists that she is ok.

    “I have said to my friends, I want you to not necessarily go by the words I’m saying and as best as I can, I’ll try to be honest, but I can’t personally rely on the degree of honesty if I reference the last two experiences,” she said.

    During the interview, Morissette also talked about miscarriages and her struggle to get pregnant.

    “I […] felt so much grief and fear,” she wrote in a follow-up email after her interview. “I chased and prayed for pregnancy and learned so much about my body and biochemistry and immunity and gynecology through the process. It was a torturous learning and loss-filled and persevering process.”

    However, she also learned about rebuilding her health in the process.

    “When I […] chased my health in a different way, from multiple angles—[including, among other things] extensive consistent blood work monitoring to trauma recovery work to multiple doctor and midwife appointments to many tests and surgeries and investigations, things shifted,” she wrote.

    Overall, being pregnant and parenting has been an intense experience, Morissette said.

    “It’s this whole chemistry of emotions. Hormones and chemicals that are just coursing through your body. It [can] be triggering, or flashbacking, or re-traumatizing,” she explained.

    Through it, she has learned to do what she needs to do to take care of herself. .

    “Extroverts restore, in theory, with people, and introverts restore alone—so for me, one of the biggest questions with me having two or three kids, was where is that solitude? How and where?” she said. “For me, it’s just about getting really creative, and maybe it’s a hotel room here or bathroom stall here. Making sure there’s doors that go out behind our house so there’s a little area with a little gazebo here…whatever I need to do to create this. It’s not anyone else’s job to be responsible for my temperament. Maybe pin-drop silence right now is the key. Or it might be hey, being pure presence with my daughter right now is the key. Or right now crying is the key. Fucking binge-watching a TV show is key.”

    View the original article at thefix.com