I would spend a decade trying to reconcile two feelings: complete hatred for the stranger who was living in my daughter’s body and total surrender to my love for her.
Tag: motherhood
My Methadone Pregnancy
I listened to what my doctor told me. I did my research and I am at peace with my decision: getting off methadone while I was pregnant just wasn’t an option.
Mother’s Day: Recovery, Love, and Light
At night, tucking my kids into bed, I would make a deal with myself: hold on just a little longer until they needed me a little less and then I could go through with my suicide plan.
How I Found My Mother Through Forgiveness
I realized that in order to change my family’s lineage I would not only have to forgive everyone who ever hurt me, I would have to learn to forgive myself.
Mommy Doesn't Need Wine: The Stigma of Being a Sober Mother
“I’ve always wanted to film the real ‘after party’ when the mom is passed out with her little kid in the background, or she gets into her car and drives drunk. It happens all the time.” When I made the decision to quit drinking, one morning in June 2017 when my relentless hangover was surpassed… Continue reading Mommy Doesn't Need Wine: The Stigma of Being a Sober Mother
Serena Williams Discusses Postpartum Depression
“I think people need to talk about it more because it’s almost like the fourth trimester, it’s part of the pregnancy.” Tennis champ Serena Williams said she struggled with postpartum depression after giving birth to her daughter Alexis Olympia Ohanian Jr. “Honestly, sometimes I still think I have to deal with it,” she said in… Continue reading Serena Williams Discusses Postpartum Depression