Author: The Fix

  • Artie Lange Announces Release Date For "Halfway House" Podcast

    Artie Lange Announces Release Date For "Halfway House" Podcast

    The 51-year-old comedian announced his new podcast on Twitter and Instagram. 

    After being on the comedy circuit for the last couple months, Artie Lange is ready to get in the studio and talk it out.

    The comedian took to social media to announce that his new podcast “Artie Lange’s Halfway House” is set to premiere on December 2nd. NJ.com reports that comedian Mike Bocchetti, the announcer on Lange’s previous podcast “The Artie Lange Show,” will co-host “Halfway House.” 

    2019 has been a year of rebuilding and rehabilitation for Lange who has battled addiction for decades. 

    Drug Court Saved His Life

    In June 2018, Lange was sentenced to four years of probation for being found in possession of heroin during a May 2017 arrest. Then in December 2018, Lange tested positive for cocaine and instead of being penalized with jail time Judge Nancy Sivilli opted to send the struggling comedian to drug court, a move which he lauded on Twitter.

    “The judge and Prosecutor were unbelievably compassionate,” Lange tweeted after his court appearance. “I’m not high. So I see it clearly now. They wanna save my life. 10 days ago when I left rehab I had to touch the flame,” he said about his cocaine relapse.

    “I have work to do,” Lange added. “I feel now I can also stop Cocaine. But that’s arrogance and addiction. I’m accepting help. If I fail now I will go to jail. Jail is not for addicts. But I’d be giving them no choice. When I use illegal drugs I have to score them. That’s breaking the law.”

    On January 30, 2019, Lange was arrested after testing positive for cocaine twice in a two-month period. He spent under a week in jail after which he entered long-term rehab. Lange says he’s been sober ever since.

    On The Road Again

    In September, Lange hit the road for the first time since completing his drug rehab program. He addressed his addiction, rehab and past relationships in his new routine.

    “I had three fiancées who left me because of heroin. Heroin saved me a lot of money,” Lange joked. “Divorce would’ve been way more expensive than the drugs.”

    In another joke, he poked fun at himself and Diff’rent Strokes actor Todd Bridges who has famously battled addiction but has been sober since 1994. 

    “I burned all the bridges you can burn in show business, that’s why I’m in Bridgeport. I was in the crack house recently, I was trying to light a crack pipe and I burned Todd Bridges.”

    Lange currently has tour dates set up through January 2020. 

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  • Lil Xan Describes Withdrawals After Quitting Drugs Cold Turkey

    Lil Xan Describes Withdrawals After Quitting Drugs Cold Turkey

    “I wanted to stop drugs completely, but I did it the wrong way.”

    Rapper Lil Xan has never been secretive about his relationship with drugs and his quest to become sober. The “Whipped Cream” rapper recently relapsed after spending time in rehab late last year and he spoke to TMZ about how quitting cold turkey affected his body.

    Lil Xan, born Nicholas Diego Leanos, told TMZ that he stepped out of the public eye after relapsing on hydrocodone and Xanax. Following the relapse, Xan entered the hospital to detox and would go on to suffer several seizures during the strenuous process.

    Withdrawals

    “The withdrawals actually gave me seizures,” the 23-year-old Soundcloud rapper told TMZ. “It was a wake-up call … they said it was from just going cold turkey off of Xanax. I wanted to stop drugs completely, but I did it the wrong way.”

    Lil Xan’s battle with addiction has been a public one, like many of his peers. After seeing his hero Mac Miller and his friend Lil Peep succumb to their addictions at the start of their very promising careers, Xan decided it was time to get help for his addiction.

    Miller’s 2018 overdose death left Xan shaken and unsure if he wanted to continue making music. During an appearance on Adam22’s No Jumper podcast last September, Xan said,  “When your hero dies, f—k that s—t,” he said. “I don’t want to make music no more.”

    During the podcast, Xan also spoke about his desire to get sober.  

    “I want to get sober now, completely sober, but it’s so hard,” he told Adam22. “I just want to be off everything. I want to be like a normal person. If I didn’t have a tour coming up, I would be in rehab right now.”

    Losing Lil Peep

    A year prior to Mac Miller’s overdose, Xan lost a close peer to addiction. Gustav Elijah Åhr, better known as YouTube star and rapper Lil Peep, died in November 2017 from a fatal overdose. Fentanyl, Xanax, marijuana, cocaine and Tramadol were found in the 21-year-old’s system, according to a toxicology report.

    Xan said that Peep was on his mind a lot during his most recent relapse. The rapper entered rehab last December and checked out two weeks later. He has relapsed a couple times but the latest relapse made him withdraw from the public eye while he dealt with his health. 

    “It has to come from within,” Xan said about sobriety last year. “I’ve gone through periods of like, six months. And now it’s because of me. It’s because I want to be clean.”

    Xan says that he’s now “completely sober.”

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  • Designer Drugs: My Addiction to Research Chemicals

    Designer Drugs: My Addiction to Research Chemicals

    Chemists create new drugs faster than officials can schedule them, resulting in a drug supply tainted with chemicals that can’t be tested because they don’t really exist.

    My wife came with me to the intake session at the city’s drug and alcohol center even though I had a protection from abuse order pending on the court’s docket. She knew I’d been in recovery and had started drinking again, but she’d only recently learned of the extent of my addiction when I broke down the bathroom door to stop her from calling the police. Why she stuck with me or what she was thinking I couldn’t say; I was too ashamed of what I had done to ask her if she was all right. 

    Instead, I buried myself in the mundane paperwork of medical billing and told the counselor my story while my wife sat mostly silent. For almost two years, I trafficked in grey market drugs for my personal use. An assortment of chemical mixtures was delivered to my door, sometimes within reach of my kids.

    4-FMPH, a Synthetic Analog of Ritalin with a Fluoro Substitution

    The first drug I purchased was 4-FMPH, a synthetic analog of Ritalin with a fluoro substitution. Fifty dollars, plus the cost of shipping, bought me a few grams of the stuff from an unassuming website called “Plant Food USA.” People who know about these types of things remember that site for the scams that it pulled, like selling α-PVP as 2-FMA. These are the risks in a chemical world.

    It wasn’t a clandestine operation, save for what I hid from my wife. I found the site through Reddit and paid with Google Wallet for two-day delivery via the U.S. mail. An unlabeled bag of white powder arrived at my door in a large white priority envelope. I swallowed a portion of it without question and spent the next couple hours worrying about how to throw out the packaging without anyone finding it.

    Before long, the drugs, and the schemes, became more intricate. I tried ethylphenidate, isopropylphenidate, 3-FMA, and Hex-en. Bitcoin became my new banking system, which meant keeping my wife away from our finances and making her think we had less than we did. I’d stay late at work emailing vendors while ignoring her texts for help with the kids. 

    It was exhausting, hiding my habit from her. The day the cops showed up to serve me those papers would have been a relief, had she not been outside with her family trembling in fear. And yet here she was, a week later, sitting in a Medicaid-funded outpatient program listening to a counselor ask me how I was doing while telling old war stories from his days off the wagon.

    His brother doesn’t speak to him, I remember he said. “But that’s his problem and not mine anymore.”

    The Molly Enigma

    Designer drugs, research chemicals, synthetic analogs, and novel-psychoactive substances, as they’re sometimes called, have long been on the periphery of the illicit drug trade. Often, local news channels reduce them to fodder about bath salts and flakka and face-eating zombies. But today, experts are beginning to draw a straight line between the overseas chemists who create these drugs and the overdoses that plague so many people who unwittingly use them.

    ”[It’s] what I refer to now as the Molly Enigma,” said Jim Hall, an epidemiologist at Nova Southeastern University’s Center for Applied Research on Substance Use and Health Disparities. For the past 35 years, Hall has tracked patterns and trends of substance use disorders in southeast Florida for the National Drug Early Warning System.

    “We missed the boat when Molly first appeared, went in the wrong direction, and avoided a lesson which could have predicted the fentanyl crisis,” he continued.

    One of the more well-known designer drugs to hit the scene, Molly is thought of by many to be pure MDMA. According to the DEA and the National Institute on Drug Abuse, however, it’s more likely to be a cauldron’s brew of synthetic cathinones like MDPV, 4-MEC, 4-MMC, Pentedrone and more. My vendors sold all these at discounted rates.

    Somewhere Between Face-Eating Zombie Hysteria and the Fentanyl Crisis

    When looked at alone, most of these drugs lie somewhere between face-eating zombie hysteria and the fentanyl crisis, vanishing from small pockets of the country as fast as they appear. In 2015, around 30 people died in the Pittsburgh area after overdosing on U-47700, an opioid painkiller that pharmacists developed back in the 1970s. Two years earlier, an Oklahoma man pleaded no contest to second-degree murder after accidentally selling a highly-toxic mixture of Bromo-DragonFLY at a party. He purchased it on the web, thinking it was a less caustic drug known as 2C-E.

    But as Dr. Hall explained, taken as a whole, this new trend in substances has its roots at the turn of the decade, when discarded medical research turned up on the web. 

    “We saw the beginning of clandestine manufacturing of these chemicals primarily occurring in China, but also some in Eastern Europe, [and] in the former Soviet Union,” Hall said. “Then the spread first of the synthetic cannabinoids, the K2 or spice into Australia, New Zealand, and then into the European continent. Then to North America, which has also been a sort of pattern of the emergence of these substances rather than first appearing in the United States.” 

    Novel Psychoactive Substances and Drug Tests

    I discovered alpha-Pyrrolidinohexiophenone, or A-PHP, when 2-FMA dried up in a big Chinese ban. Shortly after that, I disappeared from my family for a week. The “Missing” posters that my wife put up finally prompted me to make contact, but only because I was angry that she would do something like that to embarrass me. I didn’t ask about our kids, only why she used such a terrible photograph of me.

    At the time, she made me beg to come home for what I did to the kids, so I told her the things that she needed to hear. Then I spent another night away from the house because everything would be the same regardless. Who knows what she was thinking when she took me back in; I didn’t care to ask her if she was all right.

    Novel psychoactive substances, or NSPs, live in a grey market world, walking a line of legality that’s tough to pin down. MDPV begat α-PVP, which begat A-PHP with the tweak of a molecule. Chemists create new drugs faster than officials can schedule them. The process results in a few hollow legal victories along the way, and a drug supply tainted with chemicals that can’t be tested because they don’t really exist.

    “You can have all these people intoxicated on, say a new form of fluoro-amphetamines, but most hospitals have what are called targeted panels,” said Roy Gerona, a toxicologist at the University of California, San Francisco, who, along with a team of researchers works with the DEA to identify new NSPs as they come on the scene. 

    “So even if the patient comes in and is intoxicated by this new derivative when the hospital tests the patient, it will test negative,” he continued. “They will not confirm the drugs.”

    Gerona, whose work was explored in an article about designer drugs a few years ago, told me how NSPs create a new set of problems for both the legal and scientific communities. The DEA can’t schedule a drug without first showing that it’s both toxic and addictive, something that’s difficult to prove rapidly, he told me. Meanwhile, strict guidelines from the FDA have researchers hamstrung when it comes to identifying new substances quickly.

    “In that six months in 2015, for example, there have already been three generations of synthetic cannabinoids, meaning that by the time that you have developed and validated those methods, the draws that you’ve included in the panel, it’s not popular anymore,” Gerona explained.

    Cathinones: Bath Salts and Antidepressants

    Some of these drugs have actual medicinal properties and can be used as prescriptions, Gerona told me, negating the idea of a blanket ban on them all. The Federal Analogue Act tried to rein in the problem by making any substance that was “substantially similar” to Schedule I or II drugs also illegal. Still, it’s rarely been used or held up in court.

    “Bupropion or Wellbutrin is an antidepressant,” he explained. “Wellbutrin is a cathinone. Cathinones are the active chemicals in bath salts. So, if you schedule all cathinones, then research on a lot of these medicinal chemicals would also be impeded.”

    But that doesn’t mean there’s nothing to be done.

    Building off of his work surveilling such cases, Gerona and his team developed what he calls a “Prophetic Library” of new drugs, hoping to outwit the overseas chemists and lessen the downtime it takes to respond to further incidents. 

    “We thought if people creating these are chemists, we are chemists,” said Gerona. “If they can look at the literature [and] know what tweaks that they can make from publications or expired patents from drug companies, we should be able to predict what they would be potentially doing.” 

    For Gerona and his team, there’s no glory in the task, because publishing their findings would create reference material for more clandestine operations. They’re hidden away until, hopefully, they can help.

    Predicting the future can be a difficult task, because the stories we write, well, they never end. On the day after New Year’s, my wife went to bed, and I went online to buy more A-PHP. For me, I was looking for more of the same, until I noticed she moved all our money to a separate account.

    Not All Right

    I woke her up, intent on throwing her out of the house, and stormed through the place with fire and rage. When she locked herself in the bathroom to call the police, I broke the door down and ripped the phone from her hand. What right did she have to come between me and my drugs?

    When the cops did arrive, I said what they needed to hear and taunted my wife as soon as they left. But I felt ashamed of what I had done. I apologized to her and asked if she was all right.

    The next day she filed that protection from abuse order on me. She wasn’t all right. 

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  • "Vanderpump Rules" Star James Kennedy Is 5 Months Sober

    "Vanderpump Rules" Star James Kennedy Is 5 Months Sober

    “I never realized how much alcohol was slowing me down and making me procrastinate in big life things that I could be pursuing now,” Kennedy says.

    Reality TV star James Kennedy is enjoying his newfound sobriety. The Vanderpump Rules star, who infamously showcased his heavy drinking on the show, spoke to People during BravoCon, a convention dedicated to all things related to the popular basica cable channel that is home to Rules and the Real Housewives franchise.

    “I don’t drink anymore,” the 27-year-old told People. “I’m five months sober now. It’s been incredible.”

    Going Public With His Sobriety

    Kennedy first went public with his sober journey on Instagram back in August. In the post, he announced that he was coming upon four weeks of sobriety and fans showered him with support. Prior to becoming sober, Kennedy’s problematic relationship with alcohol was highlighted on the show as he lost work due to his drinking and hurt many friendships that he had cultivated with other stars of the show. 

    “I never realized how much alcohol was slowing me down and making me procrastinate in big life things that I could be pursuing now,” he told People during BravoCon. “My career is getting even bigger and my deejaying is really taking off so I’m taking it seriously. I’m going to take over!”

    Now that’s he sober, he has had to learn to deal with stage fright and anxiety without the aid of alcohol.

    “I’m dealing with all the anxiety and pre-show jitters without drowning myself in vodka,” he described. “You’ll see this season what I do to actually get over alcohol, it was a process for sure. I take it day by day and keep it gangsta.”

    Lala’s Sober Journey

    Kennedy’s Vanderpump Rules castmate Lala Kent is also thriving in sobriety, having just celebrated her first-year sober in October. Kent opened up about her decision to become sober back in March. 

    “Five months ago, I came to the realization that I am an alcoholic, and I am now a friend of Bill W., which you will never know how much this program means to me [and] has given me new life,” Kent said in an Instagram story, according to People. 

    “I always say if you don’t have to be sober, I wouldn’t recommend it, but me—as someone who does need to be sober—being in my right frame of mind every single day is truly incredible. When I’m having the roughest day that I could possibly have, I—for once in a very, very long time—see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know that tomorrow I’m gonna be okay,” Kent said. 

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  • Biden Won't Legalize Marijuana Because It May Be "A Gateway Drug"

    Biden Won't Legalize Marijuana Because It May Be "A Gateway Drug"

    The former VP is holding his ground on opposing marijuana legalization despite its overall acceptance amongst his presidential candidate peers.

    During a recent town hall in Las Vegas, former Vice President Joe Biden reinforced his anti-marijuana legalization stance, citing the lack of evidence of its effects as a major issue.

    “The truth of the matter is, there’s not nearly been enough evidence that has been acquired as to whether or not it is a gateway drug,” Biden said during the Vegas townhall, according to Business Insider. “It’s a debate, and I want a lot more before I legalize it nationally. I want to make sure we know a lot more about the science behind it.”

    Back in March, Andrew Bates, a campaign spokesperson for Biden, solidified the former VP’s stance on marijuana — Biden believed that the Schedule I drug should be decriminalized and that states should be able to make decisions about legalizing it. 

    States Rights

    “Vice President Biden does not believe anyone should be in jail simply for smoking or possessing marijuana. He supports decriminalizing marijuana and automatically expunging prior criminal records for marijuana possession, so those affected don’t have to figure out how to petition for it or pay for a lawyer,” Bates said in a statement to CNN. “He would allow states to continue to make their own choices regarding legalization and would seek to make it easier to conduct research on marijuana’s positive and negative health impacts by rescheduling it as a Schedule II drug.” 

    Currently, marijuana is classified as a Schedule ! drug alongside heroin and LSD. This scheduling makes researching the drug and its possible short and long-term effects extremely difficult.

    “Indeed, the moment that a drug gets a Schedule I, which is done in order to protect the public so that they don’t get exposed to it, it makes research much harder,” NIDA Director Nora Volkow said, according to Marijuana Moment. “This is because [researchers] actually have to through a registration process that is actually lengthy and cumbersome.”

    Not Enough Evidence

    The debate over whether marijuana is a gateway drug is ongoing. The CDC says more research is needed to make that determination while the National Institute on Drug Abuse also appears to suggest there is not enough evidence to declare marijuana a gateway drug. 

    Studies have shown that while there is a correlation between marijuana use and the use of other drugs, the same can be said of alcohol and tobacco. But multiple studies say there is not enough evidence to prove that it specifically leads to the use of harder drugs.

    Biden’s stance on marijuana legalization goes against many of his fellow democratic candidates for president.

    Where Other Presidential Candidates Stand

    Kamala Harris took to Twitter on Monday, Nov 18, to laud her new bill and take a jab at Biden.

    “Let’s be clear: marijuana isn’t a gateway drug and should be legalized. Glad to see my bill with Rep. Nadler take the next step in the House this week.” Harris’s new bill would remove marijuana from the Controlled Substances list altogether, expunge marijuana-related crimes from records and protect people of color from being dicriminated against for marijuana use or possession.

    Cory Booker, Bernie Sanders, Elizabeth Warren, Andrew Yang, Pete Buttigieg, Julian Castro all support marijuana legalization. 

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  • Prince's Cousin Reflects On Late Singer's Overdose Prior To His Death

    Prince's Cousin Reflects On Late Singer's Overdose Prior To His Death

    “Somebody should be held accountable and I hope to make sure that happens someday.”

    A week before his death, Prince reportedly overdosed on a plane ride and was subsequently revived with the help of Narcan. The icon’s death would go on to overshadow the near-fatal overdose that preceded it, but now his cousin Charles Smith is discussing the incident on a recent episode of E! True Hollywood Stories that focuses on the Purple Rain singer.

    On April 15, 2016, the singer reportedly stopped breathing mid-flight, forcing the plane to make an emergency landing in Moline, Illinois, so that first responders could revive him. Shortly after the singer was revived, he returned home and it was business as usual. 

    “Somebody was hiding something,” Smith said in the episode. “Prince is back to being Prince again and they take him back home. He should’ve never left that hospital.”

    Six days later, the 57-year-old musician was found dead of a suspected overdose. A toxicology report revealed that he had exceedingly high concentrations of fentanyl in his blood. 

    In 2018, after a two-year investigation, Carver County officials announced that no one would be held accountable for Prince’s overdose death. 

    Carver County Attorney Mark Metz said that Prince had taken counterfeit Vicodin which was laced with fentanyl. The singer reportedly had no idea the pills were counterfeit. Investigators were unable to find “sufficient evidence” that someone had provided him with the fake pills

    Smith expressed disdain for the lack of accountability for the late singer’s death.

    Who’s Accountable For His Death?

    “I knew this was going to be the result,” Smith said in response to the announcement. “Somebody should be held accountable and I hope to make sure that happens someday.”

    A federal lawsuit was brought against Dr. Michael T. Schulenberg, who had treated the singer twice in the week after his near-fatal overdose. The doctor stood accused of prescribing Percocet to Prince’s bodyguard though the Percocet was actually for the singer.

    Meanwhile the singer’s family filed suit against Schulenberg, Walgreens (who filled the prescription) and other individuals from Trinity Medical Center who they claimed “failed to appropriately evaluate, diagnose, treat and counsel Prince for his recognisable opioid addiction.”

    “We understand this situation has been difficult on everyone close to Mr. Nelson and his fans across the globe,” a lawyer representing Schulenberg said in 2018. “Be that as it may, Dr. Schulenberg stands behind the care that Mr. Nelson received. We intend to defend this case.”

    Schulenberg ultimately wound up settling for $30,000 with the feds. The wrongful death lawsuit is ongoing. 

    Moving Forward

    Smith has become an activist in the wake of his cousin’s death. During a January 2019 appearance at the third annual Opioid Awareness Day in St. Paul, Minnesota, Smith spoke about the opioid epidemic’s far reach. 

    “We’re losing legends, we’re losing potential legends and that’s a shame,” Smith said, according to The Star Tribune. “Prince had everything, everything you can ever want, and it touched him.”

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  • From War Correspondent to Workplace Mental Health Advocate: An Interview with Dean Yates

    From War Correspondent to Workplace Mental Health Advocate: An Interview with Dean Yates

    People often think of PTSD as being something that affects the nervous system, the brain, the body. I think it also affects the soul.

    After years of covering war, terrorist attacks, and natural disasters in the Middle East and Southeast Asia for Reuters, journalist Dean Yates was diagnosed with PTSD and “Moral Injury.” He sought healing not only with professionals and clergy, but by writing and sharing his story with the world. What happened next created a new role for him at Reuters and an opportunity to turn something tragic into something inspiring. 

    After meeting at a conference in London, Dean Yates spoke with me from his home in Australia. 

    What did it mean to be a bureau chief for Reuters in Bagdad at the time you were there? 

    Yates: I was the bureau chief in Bagdad at the height of the Iraq war just before the surge of US troops into Iraq. This was George W. Bush’s last roll of the dice. It had plunged basically into civil war. That first six months of 2007 were the most violent period during the Iraq war. There were car bombs going off every day. That job entailed being responsible for coverage of that story but also being responsible for close to 100 men and women in the world’s most dangerous reporting zone. That made it an extremely stressful job. If I had half an idea of what it was going to be like, I’m not sure I would’ve gone there in retrospect because what ended up happening was way beyond anything I was prepared for. 


    On the roof of the Reuters office in Baghdad

    Over the years you reported on many tragic events including a nightclub massacre that killed 202 people in Bali in 2002 and a tsunami that killed 165,000 in Indonesias Aceh province in 2004 before you arrived in Bagdad. You’ve written in your stories about losing several colleagues in Iraq. Can you talk about what that was like? 

    What it comes down to really is, you know, I felt morally responsible for the safety of my staff. I think that’s something a lot of people experience. Even though people say you did everything you could, you shouldn’t blame yourself, that wasn’t how I felt. It surfaced later into this moral injury. I just couldn’t live with myself because of what I saw as my own culpability and my failure. It was a spiritual care worker at the psych ward who helped guide me through a healing ceremony where I was able to pay my respects to Namir (22) and Saeed (40), the two men who were killed in an attack by a U.S. Apache helicopter on July 12, 2007 in Baghdad. This spiritual care worker was able to be at my side. No clinician could have done that. I really found I was able to make peace with myself after that ceremony.

    What is Moral Injury? 

    Actually, you can trace it back to the writings of Homer, the ancient Greek poet, and his epic poems “The Iliad” and “The Odyssey.” What it really means is if someone feels there is something that they did or didn’t do or that they witnessed that so deeply contravenes their moral compass or ethical values, they end up with a moral injury. People often think of PTSD as being something that affects the nervous system, the brain, the body. I think it also affects the soul. Think of a soldier who believed he was doing something good for the community but the Taliban, it turned out, didn’t like what he was doing and so the end result is that children die. You can’t give someone medication for that or give them a bit of evidence-based therapy.

    That makes sense. I’ve heard a lot of people in recovery talk about how when they were using and drinking, they did things in service of their disease which were not in alignment with their own moral compass. 

    You talk in one of your stories about taking paracetamol and codeine tablets to get to sleep and about drinking heavily as well as staying in bed, do you feel you were self-medicating your undiagnosed condition at that time? 

    Oh yeah, totally. I honestly don’t think I’ve ever suffered from addiction. I went through bouts where I’d rely on alcohol or prescription medication but I was never in that years long cycle that some of my colleagues have been in. I had a little bit of an experience with it, but I got off the booze quite easily on my first psych ward admission.

    Journalists have been known as boozers for as long as the profession has existed. I remember one weekend I was on duty and I was in the office asleep on the couch so hungover and the boss walked into the office with his wife and I remember him saying to his wife “let’s be quiet, I think Dean’s had a big night, we don’t want to wake him.” If that happened now, I’d be fired. But back then it was all part of the journalist culture. We went out and got roaring drunk. It was how we dealt with a lot of the traumatic stories. When we were in Baghdad we used to spend huge amounts of money on alcohol. Because we had to. Otherwise we would have gone crazy.

    You’re lucky you were brave enough to seek out help and you did find the help you needed so you no longer had to self-medicate. We talk now in the addiction field about trauma being one of the main causes of addiction.

    Who can be affected by PTSD

    Oh anyone. All it takes is a severe enough traumatic event for someone to be at risk of developing PTSD. But the problem is that people associate PTSD with soldiers and increasingly with first responders. I’ve seen it across so many different sectors of the work force: nurses, doctors, and then in the civilian sphere—domestic violence, road accident victims. In Australia 70% of people will experience a traumatic event, according to Phoenix Australia (a center for post-traumatic mental health in Australia). In the U.S. the biggest group of people with PTSD are actually victims of rape. It doesn’t matter what brought you to the diagnosis. It doesn’t matter what your profession was. You all have flashbacks, nightmares, anxiety, depression. We have these things in common that I thought wouldn’t have been possible and it makes me angry that so many of these people suffering with PTSD are silenced. It’s the same with addiction. 

    Addiction is very much a disease of isolation. The whole idea of stigma contributes to the avoidance. It looks to me like avoidance has a role in the development of mental illness and PTSD in the first place. 

    Yes, I had isolated myself incredibly. The only people who knew I had PTSD were my family and a few close friends. It was the same when I was in the psych ward. When I walked in that door it was terrifying. You know once you go through that door you can’t take that back. How’s that going to look on your resume? Because people think you’re crazy.

    What do you think happened for you in the process of writing your story “The Road to Ward 17” even before you published it? 

    The writing process is cathartic, it’s therapeutic, you learn a lot about yourself; it’s part of the recovery process. There’s so much research out there about the power of writing and sharing your story with others. 

    When you wrote your story, how were your expectations different from what happened when you actually published it? 

    I had initially thought that this could maybe be used as a blog for other colleagues, but then I thought this should actually be published. One of the things I thought about in the psych ward was that these folks who were in there, they were going through really rough times, and no one could tell their story. But I thought if I tell my story it’s a little like telling their story. 

    The story ended up in the hands of our investigations editor in New York who is responsible for what’s called our special reports. We rarely publish first person account stories. But he really liked it. And when the story came out I wasn’t prepared for the response. I was more prepared to get negative responses. For people to be angry about me talking about the Apache attacks and Wikileaks. But I got messages from people all over the world and all walks of life who had experienced trauma just saying thanks for writing your story, thanks for putting this out there, thanks for telling it like it is. I’d only come out of the psych ward a couple months earlier. 

    The video of the attack that killed your two colleagues, and the way only parts of it were released, created a certain perspective that skewed much of the response to it, even your own if I read you right. What have you learned about perspective in all this? 

    Two weeks after Namir and Saeed had been killed, I was sitting in this office with these two generals and they started playing the tape and we had no idea that was coming. I saw the first— not even three minutes— of the tape and the tape was stopped at the moment the Apache fired on the men which included my staff. I walked out of that briefing with this one image in my head of our photographer peering around that corner. That image actually was burned into my brain for years and I just could not get that image out of my head to the point where I actually started seeing him as being responsible for what happened, whereas the order to fire had already been given before he even peered around the corner. And then when the (full) tape was released in 2010 I could not actually physically watch it. I knew what happened. I had read the transcripts by then but I hadn’t actually watched it. It was only when I wrote that story that I was able to watch that tape for the first time because I knew I had to get the timing of the events correct. So it did give me a different perspective. That tape to me shows the world what the Iraq war was really like.


    Tributes to Namir and Saeed

    Changing the Face of Mental Health at Work

    How are you transforming what was a tragic event into something inspiring in your new role at Reuters? 

    I wanted to try to create an environment where our staff felt comfortable putting their hands up and saying I’ve got mental illness or whatever and have management respond with compassion so that they could access the resources we have available. Because when you have an environment where people don’t feel comfortable talking about it, there’s not much you can do. 

    We’ve been doing a series of internal blogs at Reuters. I wrote about my PTSD issues, and what it did is it kicked off other journalists writing about their own issues. The next person was a journalist in the Middle East who wrote about his struggle with bi-polar, another woman wrote about her depression, another guy wrote about his burnout. Some of these journalists have been overwhelmed with responses which also makes them feel like they’ve got meaning out of what they’ve done. They’ve got purpose out of what they’ve done. 

    We’ve had about 30 now but not a single blog about addiction. So this colleague of mine in London is going to write about her addiction but she wants to remain anonymous. I think that just shows how much stigma there still is.

    Those blogs were very powerful in normalizing that conversation to the point where I think they’ve been as effective as anything we’ve done in getting that message out there that it’s okay to come forward, and that you’ll get the support you need. And it’s helpful for managers because if they’re reading about colleagues getting help, they’re thinking I want to be a good manager and make sure my people get the help they need,too. One of my areas of focus this year has been in training managers on how to look after the mental health of their team.

    This is an important endeavor considering that, according to the Mental Health at Work 2019 Report BiTC, 62% of managers faced situations where they put the interests of their organizations above the interest of their colleagues. 

    You’re not a psychologist or a psychiatrist but what you’re offering is peer support; you can explain to a manager how to talk to their staff who are struggling because you’ve been there. 

    Right, I know the profession and I’ve got the lived experience of mental illness. I try to operate in the early intervention space. I am not an expert but I can be an advocate. I’ve got the street cred. No one can look at me and say you don’t know what you’re talking about. Because I do.

    If the 12-step movement has taught us nothing else it’s taught us that peer support works. 

    It crosses my mind that there’s something in this for the corporate world. How does mental health and addiction effect a company’s level of productivity?

    I was able to function very highly for a long time but one of the symptoms of PTSD is avoidance. And so one of the great ways of avoiding your issues is through work and that was how I did it and I know a lot of people who have done the same thing. People want to contribute and they want to be part of something bigger than themselves. All the research shows that work is good for people’s mental health in general. But the point is: Don’t look after people’s mental health because it’s good for the business, look after people’s mental health because it’s the right thing to do. People with a mental health issue just want to be acknowledged. They want to be treated as if they had come into the office with their leg in a plaster (cast). You come into the office with your leg in plaster–it’s okay, we’ll sort this out; you’re supposed to be at that conference next week, we’ll send someone else; and okay, you’ve got to go to that doctor appointment, no problem. If you treat people like that, the numbers take care of themselves. 

    Fair enough, though it is interesting to note that at the Mad World Summit in London, where we met, Sir Vince Cable was quoted as saying, “Mental illness costs the UK economy more than Brexit.” Which is a lot of money. And, according to the CDC, by combining medical and behavioral health care services, the United States could save $37.6 billion to $67.8 billion a year.

    One last question. What would you say to someone out there who’s suffering in silence from depression or PTSD or trauma or substance use disorder or any kind of mental illness? 

    You are not alone.


    Dean Yates in Times Square, October 2019 (Helen Barrow/Evershine Productions)

    The Road to Ward 17: My Battle with PTSD
    Return to Ward 17: Making Peace with Lost Comrades

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  • Demi Lovato Reportedly Bonded With New Beau Over Sobriety

    Demi Lovato Reportedly Bonded With New Beau Over Sobriety

    The singer recently made it “Instagram official” with her new beau Austin Wilson, who is also sober. 

    On November 12, “Sorry Not Sorry” singer Demi Lovato took to Instagram to unveil something special: her new relationship with boyfriend Austin Wilson. In a caption under a black and white picture of Wilson kissing Lovato on the cheek, the pop star wrote “My ❤️.”

    A source close to the new couple exclusively told US Weekly that “Demi’s friends approve of Austin and they’re both great influences on each other. Austin and Demi are both sober and it’s easy for them to connect and understand each other.”

    Dating A Member Of Bachelor Nation

    Demi had previously dated Mike Johnson from The Bachelor Nation. Their fling was short-lived and ended in October.

    “They went on a couple of dates and texted each other every day, but it was never a serious, full-blown relationship by any means,” the source told US Weekly about Lovato’s time with Johnson. “There is absolutely no love lost between them. The timing just wasn’t right because they’re both so busy.”

    “I will say this, that Demi is amazing,” Johnson told US Weekly in mid-October. “I think that she’s a beautiful individual inside and out.”

    Demi has been very open over the years about living with addiction, bulimia and bipolar disorder. Her apparent overdose last June made headlines and the singer has been sober and working on new music ever since.

    Sober Together

    Her new 25-year-old beau is no stranger to addiction and sobriety himself. The model’s mother took to Instagram to celebrate his one-year sober milestone which also happened to be on his birthday back in May. 

    How the two met is still a mystery but there is speculation that they may have bonded over the loss of their mutual friend Thomas Trussell III, a model who passed away from fatal overdose in early October, according to Radar Online. Shortly after his funeral, Demi got a cursive “T” tattoo in honor of her late friend. 

    After announcing making her new relationship Instagram official, the pop star got back on the app the following day to announce that she is making new music. 

    “Recording a song for my loyal #Lovatics — the ones who support me and whatever makes me happy,” she wrote in a recent instagram story, according to People.  

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  • "Patriot Act" Host Hasan Minhaj Talks Mental Health, Stigma

    "Patriot Act" Host Hasan Minhaj Talks Mental Health, Stigma

    “I remember telling my dad, ‘I’m feeling really sad.’ He’s like, ‘Drink some water and take a nap.’ Ironically, if you know someone who is drinking and sleeping all day, they might be depressed.”

    Netflix’s Patriot Act recently returned for a new cycle and host Hasan Minhaj is tackling the hot button topic of mental health. Ahead of the show’s return, the comedian spoke to Teen Vogue about mental health care, stigma, and how good it feels to talk to a therapist because they can’t “legally snitch on you.”

    “It is something that I think is very much finally being spoken about, but in communities of color there’s still a stigma around mental health,” Minhaj said. “I kind of wanted to tell my own personal story in regards to that, but also talk about the systemic mechanisms put in place that are preventing people from getting the mental health care that they need.”

    He then described his personal relaitonship with mental health and how his family views the highly-stigmatized topic.

    Sweeping Depression Under The Rug

    “Well for the longest time, you know, in our community we just didn’t think of mental health as a thing. I remember talking to my parents about it, and it’s like in our community if you’re ever feeling down or if you feel like …you’re going through issues, it’s like, you need to pray more and you need to sleep,” he explained.

    “I remember telling my dad, ‘I’m feeling really sad.’ He’s like, ‘Drink some water and take a nap.’ Ironically enough if you know someone who is drinking and sleeping all day, they might be depressed. It’s one of those things where it’s like we’re finally getting to a place where okay, we can have that conversation, overcome the stigma.”

    For those who are able to overcome the stigma and reach out for help, access to care remains a pervasive issue. Something Minhaj acknowledged in both the Teen Vogue interview and on The Patriot Act.

    “The saddest part is, is that if you are one of the few people that are actually lucky enough to have healthcare in this country — if you think getting physical healthcare is hard, getting proper mental healthcare treatment is incredibly difficult by design”

     

    Fans of The Patriot Act know that while the topics can be heavy they are always infused with humorous asides. In this case, Minhaj cracks on how awesome it is to tbe completely honest about your feelings to a therapist because they are legally obligated to keep your info confidential. 

    Benefits Of Talk Therapy – No Snitching

    “One of the things that we talk about in the episode is, ‘Hey, can we all just admit it’s nice to talk to somebody who can’t legally snitch on you.’ We all have this fear of if I tell people, even people that I love, things that are hurting me or concerning me, this could come around and hurt me later. Or, maybe I’m telling them too much, or maybe I’m being a burden. I think that just being able to say that I think is a step in the right direction of like, ‘I think I just may need someone to talk to.’”

    Minhaj added, “Approximately 43 million Americans suffer from a mental health issue. Again, it is sort of a sliding scale and it varies case to case, depending on what your personal circumstances are, what your biological and genetic circumstances are, and also substance [use disorder]. What substances you are taking or not taking. The thing that we wanted to focus on is just let’s just focus on mental health as an overarching topic, you know. I just love that we were able to actually tie it into a very specific piece of legislation called the 2008 Mental Health Parity and Addiction Equity Act.”

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  • Facts & Fables: William Schaberg Explores the Big Book's True Origins

    Facts & Fables: William Schaberg Explores the Big Book's True Origins

    Both Big Book zealots and AA’s harshest critics will have a problem with this book—you’re either blasphemous for criticizing a saint or not going far enough to expose a fraud.

    It’s been 40 years since Earnest Kurtz’s Not God: A History of Alcoholics Anonymous, which was the last substantial scholarly research into AA’s early years. This week, William Schaberg’s three pound, 800-page Writing the Big Book: The Creation of A.A. was released, and it’s already cracked the top 20 in both Amazon’s Twelve-Step Programs and Alcoholism Recovery categories. People are ready for something new.

    “The first chapter is called, ‘Challenging the Creation Myths,’” Schaberg explains. “The chapters that follow in Writing the Big Book do just that, again and again.”

    The “We” Myth

    The Fix: “I’ve heard the stories about the Big Book being a collective effort of AA pioneers recording their shared experiences. Bill W has said he was less the author and more the umpire, with members arguing, deliberating, and carving out Alcoholics Anonymous together, chapter by chapter, line by line. Is this story of an authorial ‘We’ a mischaracterization of how the Big Book was written?

    WS: “Bill is writing back and forth to Dr. Bob and sending him draft chapters. By the time of the third letter, Wilson writes, ‘I’m having a hard time getting input here in New York, Bob. I’m glad you like the chapters but I need some critical feedback, here.’ Bill gets zero from Ohio. 

    I think one of the reasons that Bill was having a hard time getting feedback was, despite his protestations, Wilson didn’t do very well with input. Bill said proudly that despite adding ‘as we understood Him,’ and taking ‘on our knees’ out of Step Seven, the Steps remained exactly as he wrote them. Bill was fighting a rearguard action all the time because people did want him to change it. A Dr. Howard famously reviewed The Big Book with many criticisms, saying, ‘You’ve got to take all the You out and replace it with We. You can’t tell an alcoholic what to do; tell them what you did; explain how it worked for you.’ Wilson did not want to make these changes. 

    Late in my research I stumbled across a letter Hank Parkhurst wrote 17 days before the book came out saying, ‘Bill you’ve got to make these changes. If you don’t, I’ll form a committee and we’ll make them for you.’ It was a huge powerplay by Hank to get what he thought had to be done in the book. Bill finally conceded but he didn’t want to do it. This is one example of how resistant Wilson was with anyone messing with anything he’d written.”

    The Fix: “So, Alcoholics Anonymous isn’t the work of a collective?” 

    WS: “The hundred men, who argued about the book in AA meetings, blood on the floor. It didn’t happen. It did in fact happen out at Hank Parkhurst’s Honor Dealers office between Hank, Fitz Mayo and Bill arguing about what should and shouldn’t be in the book. It didn’t happen in meetings; it did happen in a New Jersey office. 

    It’s amazing how recalcitrant and negative Akron and Cleveland was about this whole book. Dr. Bob got an old newspaper man sober—Jim Scott—and we are told a story that these Akron guys weren’t writers; they wanted to write their story, but they needed Jim to help polish it up. The truth was, aside from a couple of members, they didn’t want to do them. Jim was sent by Dr. Bob to go have coffee with them one at a time, he gets them to tell him their story, Jim goes home and writes their stories. Is that the same as this sainted story about how Jim just helped these guys? No. Bill was putting heat on Bob for stories. Bob was desperate and he found a way to get it done; Jim wrote the stories.”

    The Twelve Steps Origin Myth

    The Fix: “AA’s Pass It On describes The Big Book chapters as being written in the order they appear. How did the book come together chronologically?”

    WS: “‘Bill’s Story’ and ‘There is a Solution’ were written in late May of 1938. Hank Parkhurst and Wilson were shopping the sample chapters around in the hopes of raising money; June, July, August—nothing. Parkhurst comes up with a new idea. There’s a writer for This Week Magazine, Silas Bent, that they’re trying to sober up – he’s slipping and sliding – Hank convinces Silas to submit a story about Alcoholics Anonymous. Hank’s idea was that, at the end of the story, they’d ask readers to send $1 and for that dollar they’d get five chapters, Hank thought five chapters would make the buck worthwhile. So, he goes back to Wilson and says, ‘Two chapters isn’t going to cut it—we need more.’

    Wilson started writing on September 15th, 1938 and wrote ‘More About Alcoholism’ and ‘We Agnostics,’ Chapters Three and Four.” 

    The Fix: “Chapters Five and Six in the Book are “How It Works” and “Into Action,” all about the Steps. That’s not what Bill Wilson started writing next?” 

    WS: “Right, he didn’t have Twelve Steps yet. ‘Working With Others’ was written next, ‘To Wives,’ ‘The Family Afterwards’ and then ‘A Vision For You.’ Somewhere in there, Hank Parkhurst wrote ‘To Employers.’ So, these Chapters were basically done by December 1938.”

    Schaberg describes this stage in a section in his book called, A Vision for How to Get and Stay Sober:

    Wilson knew that sooner or later, he would have to face the challenge of creating a chapter that outlined, in the clearest possible terms the actions needed to get and then stay sober. It was, he later commented, a problem that “had secretly worried the life out of him for months before he finally got around to writing it.” But so long as there was at least one single chapter that still needed to be written, Bill would elect to write that instead of facing the intimidating task of putting down on paper the exact details of the program of recovery.

    WS: “’Writing the Twelve Steps’—Chapter 23—it was the hardest for me to write. It took months and months. I was trying to make sense of the contradictory stories I was hearing. We’ve all heard the story that Bill laid in bed with a yellow pad and a pencil, he realizes that he has to write something concrete, you know, that ‘drunks couldn’t wiggle out of.’ he gets inspired, he wrote them out, there were twelve, he thinks that’s the coolest thing in the world; he goes downstairs; two guys are there having coffee with Lois. They gave him all kinds of grief, ‘God use to be at the bottom; now he’s at the top. You have drunks getting down on their knees,’ in the original version of Step Seven. That’s how Bill tells it. And when I started looking at it, it just didn’t make any sense. Other times, Bill said that The Twelve Steps were based on the word-of-mouth six steps.”

    The Fix: “Pass It On gets referenced in AA meetings, it talks about a variety of six step programs being practiced. From your findings, when did the story of six steps first start getting told?”

    WS: “1950; that’s the first evidence I could find of him telling that story. The [six steps] story morphs from 1950 to 1951. First there was the ‘Ebby brought Bill the six steps’ story. Then, a story he often repeated later was that the six steps came out of the group’s collective experience. This was the pragmatic answer, in six steps to how you stop drinking. But here’s the problem: there’s no six steps before 1939. There are 28 stories of alcoholics in the back of the First Edition Big Book written by people from Ohio and New York. Now you would think that if there was a six-step program, people would be talking about it, somebody would be talking, most of them would be talking about working this step or that one. but read the original stories.”

    The Fix: “Zero for 28, right?” 

    WS: “Exactly, O for 28. The common theme is they were powerless, they turned their lives over to God and they stop drinking; no six-step program written about before 1939.”

    The Fix: “You write about Frank Amos, sent by the Rockefellers following the infamous December 1937 New York meeting to report on what Dr. Bob and the others did to get and stay sober.”

    WS: “He travelled to Ohio to check up on what Dr. Bob and the other members were doing. He writes a report highlighting seven things they were doing to stay sober; those seven things don’t correspond to the six steps that Bill Wilson was later talking about. So, I’m up against a wall, none of this is making any sense to me. 

    One of the great reveals was when I was given a copy of Bill’s first draft of his story. Written late May of 1938, the first version, if you will—there were a couple of versions before that were really, really terrible but this was the one—that, over time, morphed into what appeared in the book. And as we’re taken through Bill’s experience in Towns Hospital, you can number about ten of those Twelve Steps.”

    The Fix: “So, the Steps are Bill’s experience, not a universal experience?”

    WS: “Things did come together in a way that made sense to me and is a credible story about the genesis of the Twelve Steps, right there in that May 1938 version of his story. You put numbers on them and there’s (at least) ten of them, right there. So, what we’re doing here, we’re not using six steps that Ebby brought to Bill or any collective experience of early members, this is ‘What I did; how did I get sober?’ Bingo, there it is.

    In the archives there is a copy of a letter, before 1950; a lawyer, Paul Kirby Hennessy wrote to Bill to confirm a discussion they had on a train ride to Washington. Paul had asked him, ‘Hey, how’d you come up with the Twelve Steps. There is a lot more detail about this encounter in my book, but Bill wrote back to Paul confirming his story that the Steps came from his personal experience. That October 19, 1948 letter is in the archives, ‘Bill’s Story of the Evolution of the Twelve Steps.’

    Bill Wilson could have written ‘Do what I did and you could get sober, but isn’t it a better story to say here is what we did—one hundred of us did—we did this, we got sober, and you can, too?’ ‘We did this,’ is a powerful message.”

    Co-Founder Mythology

    WS: “The whole co-founder thing is another example of how Wilson wasn’t inclined towards historical accuracy. He was and still is a guy who is worshipped as a guy who walks on water. Bill knew he had an ego problem. One of the things he did to cope with that was to take the spotlight off himself as much as possible. The co-founder idea is one way that Bill could do this. 

    I’m almost offended when the co-founder thing comes up. Bill Wilson is the founder of AA. 

    Mel B, a really good AA historian, came into AA in the early 1950s. I heard a really great interview with David L whereby Mel B said that back then, ‘Bill W is referred to as the founder; Dr. Bob is the co-founder,’ giving primacy to Bill Wilson.’ Bill would call himself a co-founder and Dr. Bob is a co-founder, and somewhere along the line, William James or Sam Shoemaker, Sister Ignatius or Henrietta Seiberling is a co-founder, Frank Amos claimed he was a cofounder. Bob Smith isn’t mentioned as co-founder until 1946.

    Ebby Thatcher, who brought the message of recovery to Bill—the seminal moment in AA history—if Ebby isn’t a co-founder then who is? 

    I’m almost famous for saying this by this point: ‘No Hank; no book.’ That’s absolutely the truth. The book Alcoholics Anonymous just wouldn’t have happened without Hank Parkhurst. So, if Hank isn’t a co-founder then who is? Bob Smith was the last man standing who stayed sober, that’s why we call him co-founder today.” 

    Conclusion

    The Fix: “AA’s first official accounting of historical events was A.A. Comes of Age which the 1956 General Service delegates unanimously voted to approve, relying on Bill’s recollection of early AA—nearly twenty years after writing The Big Book. Dr. Bob and the Good Oldtimers didn’t appear until 1980 and Mel B’s Pass It On: The story of Bill Wilson and how the A.A. message reached the world wasn’t green-lit until 1984; relying on many of these AA folktales recounted by sources, many of which are secondhand.”

    WS: “The people in Ohio told stories after the fact that never happened, how deeply they delved into the chapters that were sent to them. What happened was this project that they were in open rebellion against became very successful. Five, ten, twenty years later they aren’t telling stories about how they opposed the writing of the book, they’re telling the story as if they were on board from the very start. It’s just people tell stories of the past in a way that reflects the current reality—say a 1950 reality, a 1960 reality or further out—contrary to what actually happened. It’s a perfectly understandable human tendency.” 

    The Fix: “There’s a difference between investigative inquiry and looking for fault like there’s a reward for it. It’s hard not to have an agenda when researching history. I’m not surprised that Writing the Big Book, maintains a fact-driven discipline. What did surprise me, as an academic text, it read like a detective novel. I’m surprised that it is such a page-turner.”

    WS: “The historian’s everlasting quest is to answer, ‘What really happened?’ I don’t know what really happened, but I have a better idea of what happened, having done all that research. When you start finding out the stories Bill told just aren’t true in some sense, you ask, ‘Was the guy a liar? What am I doing being involved with this project, with this guy who’s a liar?’ And I actually had a couple of people who came at me from that direction. 

    But it wasn’t too long before I came to see Bill Wilson as a man of vision. Wilson wasn’t a historian; he wasn’t trying to be. Bill Wilson wasn’t a liar. He was a salesman, with a solution to alcoholism, a problem that had ravaged the nation for centuries. He thought he could save hundreds-of-thousands of lives and that is what he was trying to do. Wilson was the ultimate pragmatist; he wasn’t a dogma guy; he wasn’t a this-is-the-way-it-is guy. If it worked, he was all for it. He was telling stories that left out messy details, closer to parables than a historical account. Frequently he slips into mythmaking. The stories were supposed to be powerful, incisive, impressionable stories for people who were trying to get sober or who weren’t quite convinced yet to get sober. A myth captures the essence—not the details—of truth.”

    The Fix: “It’s fair to expect that this book will put a target on your back by both the Big Book zealots and AA’s harshest critics—you will be perceived as either blasphemous for criticizing a saint or not going far enough to expose a fraud. To skeptics, what would you say?” 

    WS: “There are 1570 citations at the back of the book along with 416 footnotes throughout the text – if you don’t believe what I’ve said in the book, or the facts I’m quoting in the book, go down to archives and find another document; I’m on board with that. 

    We need to get back to primary document research; we have to get off of this quoting Bill Wilson thing because that’s not always what happened. It makes a good story. If you’re trying to tell an inspirational story, tell that story, but if you’re trying to tell a historically accurate story, go back to the archives and read the pieces of paper that are there.”


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