“I wanted to be something other than who I am. It was literally about giving my power away,” Moore revealed.
Demi Moore spoke in-depth about her addictions to alcohol and her ex-husband Ashton Kutcher on a recent episode of the Facebook Watch series Red Table Talk.
Moore, who was joined by her daughters Tallulah and Rumer, discussed how her rocky relationship with the That 70s Show star put her in a downward spiral.
“The addiction and the co-dependency… like my addiction to Ashton — that was probably almost more devastating because it took me seriously away emotionally,” Moore said.
Living With Ashton
Moore’s youngest daughter Tallulah opened up about how sharing a home with her mother and Ashton during what would be the final years of their marriage left her feeling vulnerable and hurt.
“Watching the behavior with Ashton, those years, because everyone had left the house and it was just me living there. I felt very forgotten and I feel like I developed and nurtured a narrative where she didn’t love me and I truly believed it,” the 25-year-old explained. “I know that she does, 100% but in that moment you’re hurt.”
Red Table Talk host Jada Pinkett-Smith asked Tallulah about being estranged from her mother for three years following her relapse.
“What happened was, she relapsed when I was 9 and no one in my family spoke about it and I had no idea what was going on, she had been sober my entire childhood,” she said. “And then she drank and then I just knew that I was scared and that she was unsafe and there were many years of saying she was sober and she wasn’t and we couldn’t trust it. And all of the adults around us, in an effort to protect us, were protecting her. So if she wasn’t sober, they would tell her she was.”
An Intervention For Tallulah
Tallulah, who has been sober since 2014, says she began to spiral after her mother’s 2012 overdose. She described a scary incident where she lost consciousness after taking drugs and was discovered by her sister Scout.
“I had taken a bunch of codeine, and I had done a bunch of cocaine that morning,” Tallulah revealed. Soonafter, her sisters held an intervention at Demi’s house. At the time she and her mother had not spoken for three years. The intervention brought them closer and Tallulah entered rehab.
Prior to her relapse, Demi had been sober for most of her adulthood. Though she relapsed during their marriage, the actress doesn’t blame Kutcher for it.
“I was great sober,” she said. “I wanted to be that girl. I made my own story up, that [Ashton] wanted somebody he could have wine with and do stuff. He’s not the cause of why I opened that door, I wanted to be something other than who I am. It was literally about giving my power away.”
Demi details her journey to sobriety and her relationship with Kutcher in her new memoir, Inside Out.