Marie Osmond opened up about her son Michael Blosil’s death on CBS Sunday Morning.
Singer Marie Osmond is still haunted by her son’s suicide nearly ten years after it happened, she revealed over the weekend.
Osmond’s son Michael was 18 in February of 2010 when he killed himself by leaping from the eighth-story balcony of his home in Los Angeles. Osmond said on CBS Sunday Morning that most days she relives the pain of that moment.
“You know, I don’t think you’re ever through it,” she said, according to People. “I think God gives you respites, and then all of a sudden it’ll hit you like the day it did. The ripple effect is so huge, what you leave behind.”
Reflecting on Loss
Osmond wrote about Michael’s death in her 2013 book The Key Is Love. “You cry until you can’t cry, and then you cry some more,” she wrote, according to People.
Osmond revealed that six months before Micheal’s death, she had a moment with a fan that would be significant to look back on. “A woman gave me a hug and said, ‘Oh, Marie. You’ve been through depression, divorce, kids in rehab… What haven’t you been through?’” Osmond wrote. “I answered, ‘I haven’t lost a child. That would be the worst thing.’”
Osmond said she was at the Flamingo hotel with her daughter Rachael when her phone rang at 1:30 a.m. It was the security guard from Osmond’s gated neighborhood.
“He said, ‘Someone is here from the coroner’s office. They are coming to the Flamingo to see you,’” she wrote. “My heart dropped to the floor. I said to Rachael, ‘It has to be Michael.’”
When the officer arrived at the hotel and confirmed that Michael had died by suicide, Osmond was gutted. “I thought someone had run a knife into my heart,” she wrote.
Rehab and Depression
Michael had attended rehab in 2007, but it was not made public what he was being treated for. “My son Michael is an amazing young man, shown through his courage in facing his issues,” Osmond said at the time.
However, after his high school graduation, Osmond knew that Michael was depressed. She says that she replays the “what ifs” in her head, and wonders if there is anything she could have done to save her son.
“When I heard him say to me, I have no friends, it brought back when I went through depression, because you really feel so alone,” she told Oprah nine months after Michael’s death. “I’m not a depressed person, but I understand that place, that darkness… I told him, I said, ‘Mike, I’m gonna be there Monday and it’s gonna be OK.’ But depression doesn’t wait ‘til Monday.”