“It’s like the only way that I knew how to cope with life was drinking. I honestly didn’t know how to function,” Harmony Hobbs revealed in a recent interview.
Before becoming sober in 2017, Harmony Hobbs was a popular fixture of “wine mom culture.” She was a typical wine-loving mother of three who would kick back at the end of a long day with a glass of wine, or two, or three.
At the height of her drinking problem, the Modern Mommy Madness blogger would down a bottle and a half everyday. It didn’t start out that way. But as time went on, Hobbs “needed more and more to feel relaxed,” she told ABC News.
Her best friend and fellow blogger Audrey Hayworth said that in retrospect, she realized that Harmony would always drink more than her. The two would post product reviews on the YouTube channel MomCave while sipping from wine glasses.
Wine Mom Culture
Unlike the seemingly light-hearted drinking associated with wine mom culture, Hobbs’ drinking started to have a negative effect on her family.
“I had all this unresolved stuff [and] I didn’t know why, and I drank to make it go away but it never really went away,” Hobbs said. “Alcohol made me more depressed. So I was just miserable.”
After being in denial for so long, the Baton Rouge mother announced to her followers in 2017 that she was putting down the bottle.
“Instantly, it made me feel better,” she said. “I had rules because I didn’t want to be irresponsible, so I would drink a lot at home… Just a glass or two and I feel better. Then, I [would] get the kids again and I would drink the rest of the bottle and start on another one.”
Journaling In Recovery
Her blog became a journal of her recovery journey.
“I thought I told Robbie (her husband), ‘I can’t drink. I’m not sure if I can go on,’” she said. “That’s how it is, though. It’s like the only way that I knew how to cope with life was drinking. I honestly didn’t know how to function.”
On Monday (Sept. 16), Hobbs published a blog post titled “932 Days Sober.”
“So here is the deal: the addict part of my brain doesn’t want me to get better. She wants to keep me sick… She knows that the more I tell on my disease, the harder it will become for her to destroy me,” she wrote.
Her experience is akin to that of many others in recovery who still struggle after years of recovery.
But the early days of becoming sober proved to be the toughest.
“It’s ridiculous that at 37 years old, I’m going to have to re-learn how to cope with the difficulties of life: grief and pain and abandonment and loss and the everyday stress that accompanies motherhood,” Hobbs wrote after just 25 days sober. “Maybe I never knew how to handle those things in the first place, and that’s what landed me in a 12-step program. The ‘hows’ and ‘whys’ don’t matter—I just want to get better.”