The 25-year-old used Instagram to bring attention to smiling depression.
Demi Moore’s long-awaited autobiography, Inside Out, has been making headlines for her confessions about her past drug abuse, and the mental health issues she dealt with growing up in a dysfunctional family. Now her daughter, Tallulah Willis, is speaking out on Instagram about her own mental health issues as well.
Back in December 2018, Willis posted a video of herself dancing in a pink bikini, seemingly happy and carefree. Now she writes, “We are not what we show. When I filmed this video I remember everyone telling me over and over how they wished they had my energy, my freeness, a ownership of self.”
Yet nothing could have been further from the truth. “When this video was filmed I was three months into the deepest suicidal hole I had ever been in.”
Willis’s confession was timed to coincide with Mental Health Awareness Day, and she continued, “I’m not ready to share my story yet, but I’m with you…Pain is pain. It’s different and enters each of our lives through a myriad of ways, but each electric stab or dull ache is real. The kind of pain that you can’t see, the pain that lives in the space behind your throat. I’m scared of my brain, the capacity for pain it has and will continue to bear. My fight is daily and for the duration of my life and each day I chose to find the glowed moments, a thefted giggle, or true peaceful pause.”
While Willis said she’s not ready to share her story, she has spoken out about her mental health issues before in the press. In 2015, she spoke about suffering from depression with Teen Vogue, explaining, “I haven’t felt OK with who I am since I was 11 years old.”
Her Own Worst Critic
Coming from a famous family, Willis eventually succumbed to the taunting from cyberbullies, and she “became my own worst critic.” Willis eventually developed an eating disorder and her weight plummeted to 95 pounds. Once her depression engulfed her in college, she went into a treatment center. “It’s not night and day,” she explains. “It’s not like now I completely love myself and have no problems. That isn’t how it works. But there are the starting points of that, and that’s really exciting.”