“I let it get the better of me,” Osborne said about her addiction.
Kelly Osbourne revealed that she’s nearly two years sober on the British TV show Lorraine Thursday, and according to the reality star and daughter of the legendary singer Ozzy Osbourne, it’s changed her life for the better.
Before getting help, Kelly says she “didn’t think I could do anything if I wasn’t drunk or high, because I was scared of everything.”
“I let it get the better of me,” she confessed.
The young Osbourne is in London to host the 2019 British LGBT Awards on Friday. While she has been reluctant to take on a specific label, Kelly revealed that she is not only open to being with women, but is “open to loving anyone” during an interview with PrideSource. On Lorraine, she spoke on how important the LGBT+ community is to her after struggling to find acceptance as a sober individual.
“It’s the only community where I feel like I am home,” she said. “They have accepted me for the good, the bad and the ugly and liked me at my best and loved me at my worst.”
In an interview with People in 2018, Kelly spoke about being “ghosted” by a date after she admitted to being sober. People dedicated to sobriety often find it difficult to interact with a society in which so much of going out and having fun involves alcohol and/or drugs.
According to the National Institute on Drug Abuse, the LGBT+ community has a higher rate of substance use disorders than the general population, so it makes sense that sobriety would be better understood and accepted within that community.
Kelly Osbourne had her first experience with drugs at age 13 when she was prescribed liquid Vicodin, an opioid painkiller, after she had her tonsils out. She found that her issues with anxiety and fitting in, common problems for young teens, were alleviated by the drug. A couple years later, her persisting anxiety was treated with benzodiazepines like Xanax and Valium.
“I have crazy anxiety. I was walking around with a constant sweat moustache,” she told People. “So what’s the first thing you do? Go to a doctor. They give you Xanax, Klonopin, Valium. I’d start off taking them as prescribed. Then I’d be like, ‘These are magic pills! Take 10!’”
After a difficult relapse, Kelly will be two years sober this August. She doesn’t miss the drama or the desire to be perfect that used to hound her.
“Now seeing that I don’t need that, and my life is better,” she says “I don’t have any drama in my life. I have accepted the fact that — and I know I have said this throughout my whole life, but I really understand it now — that I am not perfect, and I am never going to be, and I don’t want to be.”