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  • Demi Moore Says She Was Addicted To Ashton Kutcher

    Demi Moore Says She Was Addicted To Ashton Kutcher

    “I wanted to be something other than who I am. It was literally about giving my power away,” Moore revealed.

    Demi Moore spoke in-depth about her addictions to alcohol and her ex-husband Ashton Kutcher on a recent episode of the Facebook Watch series Red Table Talk.

    Moore, who was joined by her daughters Tallulah and Rumer, discussed how her rocky relationship with the That 70s Show star put her in a downward spiral.

    “The addiction and the co-dependency… like my addiction to Ashton — that was probably almost more devastating because it took me seriously away emotionally,” Moore said.

    Living With Ashton

    Moore’s youngest daughter Tallulah opened up about how sharing a home with her mother and Ashton during what would be the final years of their marriage left her feeling vulnerable and hurt.

    “Watching the behavior with Ashton, those years, because everyone had left the house and it was just me living there. I felt very forgotten and I feel like I developed and nurtured a narrative where she didn’t love me and I truly believed it,” the 25-year-old explained. “I know that she does, 100% but in that moment you’re hurt.”

    Red Table Talk host Jada Pinkett-Smith asked Tallulah about being estranged from her mother for three years following her relapse. 

    “What happened was, she relapsed when I was 9 and no one in my family spoke about it and I had no idea what was going on, she had been sober my entire childhood,” she said. “And then she drank and then I just knew that I was scared and that she was unsafe and there were many years of saying she was sober and she wasn’t and we couldn’t trust it. And all of the adults around us, in an effort to protect us, were protecting her. So if she wasn’t sober, they would tell her she was.”

    An Intervention For Tallulah

     

    Tallulah, who has been sober since 2014, says she began to spiral after her mother’s 2012 overdose. She described a scary incident where she lost consciousness after taking drugs and was discovered by her sister Scout.

    “I had taken a bunch of codeine, and I had done a bunch of cocaine that morning,” Tallulah revealed. Soonafter, her sisters held an intervention at Demi’s house. At the time she and her mother had not spoken for three years. The intervention brought them closer and Tallulah entered rehab.

    Prior to her relapse, Demi had been sober for most of her adulthood. Though she relapsed during their marriage, the actress doesn’t blame Kutcher for it.

    “I was great sober,” she said. “I wanted to be that girl. I made my own story up, that [Ashton] wanted somebody he could have wine with and do stuff. He’s not the cause of why I opened that door, I wanted to be something other than who I am. It was literally about giving my power away.”

    Demi details her journey to sobriety and her relationship with Kutcher in her new memoir, Inside Out. 

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  • Demi Moore And Family Open Up About Her Addiction: "A Monster Came"

    Demi Moore And Family Open Up About Her Addiction: "A Monster Came"

    “She would be a lot more affectionate with me if she wasn’t sober,” Tallulah Willis says.

    Actress Demi Moore and her three daughters sat down with Jada Pinkett Smith, Willow Smith, and Adrienne Banfield-Jones on Red Table Talk and took some time to discuss Moore’s struggles with addiction and how it has impacted her family.

    Tallulah Describes The Anxiety She Felt When Demi Wasn’t Sober

    The Ghost star began to struggle with substance use in her early 20s and suffered a relapse in her 40s that alarmed her daughters.

    “It’s like the sun went down and like, a monster came,” said Tallulah, the youngest of the three. “I remember there’s just the anxiety that would come up in my body when I could sense that her eyes were shutting a little bit more, the way she was speaking. Or she would be a lot more affectionate with me if she wasn’t sober.”

    “It was just jarring,” added Rumer, the eldest.

    Her Mother’s Overdose

    Moore’s experiences with addiction began when she was a young child, long before she took anything herself. Her own mother was addicted to pills. In an interview with Lena Dunham in September, she told a harrowing story about digging pills out of her mom’s throat with her fingers in order to save her from an overdose.

    “The next thing I remember is using my fingers, the small fingers of a child, to dig the pills my mother had tried to swallow out of her mouth while my father held it open and told me what to do,” she said. “Something very deep inside me shifted then, and it never shifted back. My childhood was over.”

    Recalling her own childhood, Moore made the decision not to do the same to her daughters, and with their support, dedicated herself to recovery.

    “It Was Not The Mom That We Had Grown Up With”

    “My daughters offered me an opportunity to start to change the generational pattern,” she told Dunham. “To be able to break the cycles.”

    This decision has been a relief to her daughters, who didn’t recognize the person their mother became when she started drinking again.

    “It was very weird, and there were moments where it would get angry,” Tallulah said. “I recall being very upset and kind of treating her like a child and speaking to her like a child. It was not the mom that we had grown up with.”

    Moore released her memoir, Inside Out, just days after her interview with Dunham. In the book, she reveals how much she struggled with her divorce from her ex-husband Ashton Kutcher and that her self-neglect had a negative impact on her relationship with her daughters.

    Thankfully, according to a source that spoke to PEOPLE, their relationship recovered and is now strong, with Moore dedicating herself to making it even better.

    “Now, she has a beautiful relationship with all of her daughters,” the source said. “Demi feels bad about the years when she wasn’t healthy. She really tries to make up for it now.

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  • Tallulah Willis Discusses Mental Health, Suicidal Thoughts

    Tallulah Willis Discusses Mental Health, Suicidal Thoughts

    The 25-year-old used Instagram to bring attention to smiling depression.

    Demi Moore’s long-awaited autobiography, Inside Out, has been making headlines for her confessions about her past drug abuse, and the mental health issues she dealt with growing up in a dysfunctional family. Now her daughter, Tallulah Willis, is speaking out on Instagram about her own mental health issues as well.

    Back in December 2018, Willis posted a video of herself dancing in a pink bikini, seemingly happy and carefree. Now she writes, “We are not what we show. When I filmed this video I remember everyone telling me over and over how they wished they had my energy, my freeness, a ownership of self.”

    High-Functioning Depression

    Yet nothing could have been further from the truth. “When this video was filmed I was three months into the deepest suicidal hole I had ever been in.”

    Willis’s confession was timed to coincide with Mental Health Awareness Day, and she continued, “I’m not ready to share my story yet, but I’m with you…Pain is pain. It’s different and enters each of our lives through a myriad of ways, but each electric stab or dull ache is real. The kind of pain that you can’t see, the pain that lives in the space behind your throat. I’m scared of my brain, the capacity for pain it has and will continue to bear. My fight is daily and for the duration of my life and each day I chose to find the glowed moments, a thefted giggle, or true peaceful pause.”

    While Willis said she’s not ready to share her story, she has spoken out about her mental health issues before in the press. In 2015, she spoke about suffering from depression with Teen Vogue, explaining, “I haven’t felt OK with who I am since I was 11 years old.”

    Her Own Worst Critic

    Coming from a famous family, Willis eventually succumbed to the taunting from cyberbullies, and she “became my own worst critic.” Willis eventually developed an eating disorder and her weight plummeted to 95 pounds. Once her depression engulfed her in college, she went into a treatment center. “It’s not night and day,” she explains. “It’s not like now I completely love myself and have no problems. That isn’t how it works. But there are the starting points of that, and that’s really exciting.”

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  • Rob Lowe: Demi Moore Inspired Me To Get Sober

    Rob Lowe: Demi Moore Inspired Me To Get Sober

    The Parks & Rec actor discussed Demi’s influence during a recent interview on The View.

    Rob Lowe said Demi Moore inspired him to get sober in the ‘90s as his career was taking off.

    During an appearance on The View on Monday, Lowe recalled that his St. Elmo’s Fire (1986) costar “was the first person I ever knew who got sober.”

    “She was a huge inspiration to me,” he said. “It was the ‘80s, we were all doing our thing. I just remember thinking, ‘If that girl can get sober, anybody can.’”

    The two also starred in the 1986 romantic comedy About Last Night…

    Rob’s Sober Journey

    Seeing Moore do it first paved the way for Lowe to follow. He became sober in 1991 following his sex tape scandal which he called “the beginning of it all” in a 2014 interview with The Fix. He celebrated 29 years of sobriety in May.

    “Everybody has that person in their life where they go, ‘That’s a great example.’ So it was very helpful,” he said on The View.

    Lowe recalled rehab being a positive experience, which gave him the “answers that I didn’t have” about life. “It was like going to school to learn how to live your life with tools that nobody ever taught me,” he said. “Here’s one of the great ones I learned: Never compare your insides to someone else’s outsides.”

    Moore Tells All In New Memoir

    Moore’s memoir, Inside Out, has caught a lot of attention since it was released in late September for her writing about her marriage to Bruce Willis, Ashton Kutcher, and growing up with her alcoholic mother.

    She wrote about relapsing after nearly 20 years of sobriety because she wanted to be “ a fun, normal girl” for ex-husband Ashton Kutcher.

    She also shed light on the 2012 incident that landed her in the hospital when she suffered a seizure at a party, where she smoked synthetic marijuana and inhaled nitrous oxide.

    “In retrospect, what I realized is that when I opened the door [again], it was just giving my power away,” she said in a recent interview with Harper’s Bazaar. “Part of being sober is, I don’t want to miss a moment of life, of that texture, even if that means being in some pain.”

    She has re-committed to sobriety since that time. Last October, she was presented with the Woman of the Year Award by Friendly House, a women’s recovery program in Los Angeles.

    “Early in my career, I was spiraling down a path of real self-destruction, and no matter what successes I had, I just never felt good enough. I had absolutely no value for myself,” she said at the event.

    When she was given the opportunity to change by “two people, who I barely knew,” she took it.

    “It gave me a chance to redirect the course of my life, before I destroyed everything. Clearly they saw more in me than I saw in myself, and I’m so grateful, because without that opportunity… I wouldn’t be standing here today.”

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  • Demi Moore In New Memoir: Ashton Kutcher Mocked Me For Drinking

    Demi Moore In New Memoir: Ashton Kutcher Mocked Me For Drinking

    The prolific actress says she relapsed after Kutcher questioned whether alcoholism was a real thing during their marriage. 

    Demi Moore is making headlines after the release of her new autobiography, Inside Out, where she drops major bombshells about her childhood, her relationships, and living with alcoholism. 

    In the book, Moore describes an exchange with ex-husband, actor and entrepreneur Ashton Kutcher, that made her question her sobriety and led her to relapse.

    Relapsing During Their Marriage

    “Ashton was enjoying a glass of good red wine when he said, ‘I don’t know if alcoholism is a real thing—I think it’s all about moderation. I wanted to be that girl. The girl who could have a glass of wine at dinner, or do a tequila shot at a party. In my mind, Ashton wanted that, too. So I tried to become that: a fun, normal girl.”

    Moore, who was almost 20 years sober at the time, says she didn’t stop to consider that Ashton was just a young man who didn’t understand alcoholism at all. She used his uninformed thinking to justify her own return to drinking. 

    According to People, Moore revealed that the That ’70s Show star encouraged her to embrace her wild side during their marriage but when she went too far with her drinking, he would humble her with photos.

    “Ashton had encouraged me to go in this direction. When I went too far, though, he let me know how he felt by showing a picture he’d taken of me resting my head on the toilet the night before. It seemed like a good-natured joke at the time. But it was really just shaming,” Moore writes.

    Childhood Trauma

    Moore also details various life-altering incidents from her childhood in Inside Out. 

    TW: Sexual Assault

    In one of the book’s biggest revelations, Moore details how when she was 15, a middle-aged man began hanging out with her then-single mother, Virginia. One day, the man let himself into their house and sexually assaulted the teen but that would not be the last time she saw him. Shortly after the assault, the man helped them move into a new place.

    During the move, the man asked Demi, “How does it feel to be whored by your mother for five hundred dollars?”

    Demi then gets candid about the possibility that her mother played a role in her sexual assault. 

    “Though [the man] may have given Ginny [Virginia Moore] money with no clear discussion of what he would get in return, it’s also entirely possible Ginny knew exactly what he wanted, and it’s possible she agreed he could have it,” she writes.

    Moore would go on to leave her mother’s house at 16 and head to Los Angeles where she would marry, have children and cultivate a career that would span decades. 

    Though Moore has experienced many ups and downs over her 56 years, she remains grateful for the life she is privileged to lead.

    “I’ve had extraordinary luck in this life: both bad and good. Putting it all down in writing makes me realize how crazy a lot of it has been, how improbable. But we all suffer, and we all triumph, and we all get to choose how to hold both,” she writes.

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  • Demi Moore: Sobriety Lets Me Experience Life

    Demi Moore: Sobriety Lets Me Experience Life

    The “Ghost” actress details her journey to sobriety and her mother’s battle with addiction in her new memoir. 

    Actress Demi Moore is able to fully experience life now that she’s sober, according to the cover story of the October issue of Harper’s Bazaar.

    In the interview, she revealed that she has struggled with substance abuse for a long time, first getting sober in her 20s, but found herself struggling again in her 40s. In 2012, a woman called EMS on behalf of Moore, who seemed to be having a seizure after smoking an unknown substance.

    “She smoked… something… It’s not marijuana but it’s similar to incense,” the panicked woman said in the 911 call.

    Now, in her 50s, she is back on the sober train.

    “In retrospect, what I realized is that when I opened the door [again], it was just giving my power away,” Moore explained. “I guess I would think of it like this: It was really important to me to have natural childbirth because I didn’t want to miss a moment. And with that I experienced pain,” she added. “So part of being sober is, I don’t want to miss a moment of life, of that texture, even if that means being in—some pain.”

    Childhood Trauma

    Moore is set to release her memoir, Inside Out, soon. In it, she writes about her traumatizing experiences growing up with her mother who struggled with her own substance abuse problems. In the book, Moore recounted a time in which she was forced into a position where she had to revive her own mother after an overdose.

    “The next thing I remember is using my fingers, the small fingers of a child, to dig the pills my mother had tried to swallow out of her mouth while my father held it open and told me what to do,” Moore wrote. “Something very deep inside me shifted then, and it never shifted back. My childhood was over.”

    Breaking The Cycle

    Now sober, she credits her three children, Rumer, Scout and Tallulah, and their father, ex-husband Bruce Willis, for helping her get her head on straight.

    “My daughters offered me an opportunity to start to change the generational pattern. To be able to break the cycles,” she revealed.

    Last year, she spoke at a Women’s Recovery House event where she was being honored.

    “Early in my career, I was spiraling down a path of real self-destruction, and no matter what successes I had, I just never felt good enough. I had absolutely no value for myself,” she said.

    “And this self-destructive path, it very quickly brought me to a real crisis point… Two people, who I barely knew, stepped up… and they presented me with an opportunity—that was more like an ultimatum—unless I was dead, that I better show up.”

    View the original article at thefix.com

  • Demi Moore To Address Addiction In New Memoir

    Demi Moore To Address Addiction In New Memoir

    Moore’s upcoming memoir will examine the “real crisis point” that led her to enter rehab.

    Actress Demi Moore will tackle a host of issues, from her career and famous husbands and offspring to her struggle with addiction and body image issues in a new memoir, Inside Out.

    The book, which will be released by HarperCollins on September 24, 2019, promises to detail what Moore described in a 2018 speech as a “real crisis point” that sent her to rehabilitation.

    As Harper executive editor Jennifer Barth noted in a press release for Inside Out, the book is “first and foremost a woman’s story; that the woman in question happens to be one of the most celebrated actresses of our time only makes her journey of vulnerability, strength and self-acceptance all that more resonant.”

    Though Moore has yet to speak publicly about the contents of her book, People quoted a speech she gave in 2018 at an annual awards luncheon given by Peggy Albrecht Friendly House, a sober living facility in Los Angeles.

    Moore, who had been named woman of year by Friendly House, spoke about her return to sanity and sobriety from what she described as a “path of real self-destruction.”

    “No matter what successes I had, I just never felt good enough,” she said at the event. “This self-destructive path, it very quickly brought me to a real crisis point. And it wasn’t clear at the time the reason—maybe it was divine intervention—but two people who I barely knew stepped up and took a stand for me, and they presented me with an opportunity.”

    As Moore described it, the opportunity was more like an ultimatum. “Unless I was dead, I better show up,” she explained. “They gave me a chance to redirect the course of my life before I destroyed everything. And I’m so grateful because without that opportunity, without their belief in me, I wouldn’t be standing here today.”

    In 2012, Moore was hospitalized after collapsing and experiencing a seizure-like reaction. Though the incident was initially written off as exhaustion, a recording of the 911 call from Moore’s home suggested that the actress had smoked something before going into convulsions. After her hospital stay, Moore entered rehabilitation at Cirque Lodge in Utah.

    Moore, who has resumed her acting career with appearances in Rough Night, Fox’s Empire series and the upcoming Corporate Animals, said that confronting her substance issues gave her the strength to address other, more deep-rooted problems.

    “In a moment of great struggle for me, I reached out to a wise teacher and expressed my fear that I wasn’t good enough,” she said at the 2018 event. “And she said, ‘You will never be good enough but you can know the value of your worth. Put down the measuring stick.’ So today, I put down the measuring stick.”

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  • Demi Moore Honored By Women’s Recovery House

    Demi Moore Honored By Women’s Recovery House

    “Early in my career, I was spiraling down a path of real self-destruction, and no matter what successes I had, I just never felt good enough.”

    On Saturday (Oct. 27), actress Demi Moore was presented with the Woman of the Year Award by Friendly House, a women’s recovery program in Los Angeles.

    Moore was honored at the 29th Annual Awards Luncheon hosted by Friendly House, the first residential program for women recovering from substance and alcohol use disorder, according to its official website.

    “Addiction is in the history of my family and I know truly how destructive it can be, and to be able to give women who don’t have the finances or resources this opportunity is remarkable, where they are human beings and not a number on an insurance form,” Moore said to Extra at the event.

    While accepting the award, the Ghost actress shared her story of crisis and redemption. “Early in my career, I was spiraling down a path of real self-destruction, and no matter what successes I had, I just never felt good enough. I had absolutely no value for myself,” she said.

    “And this self-destructive path, it very quickly brought me to a real crisis point.” It was at this point that she was hit with a divine intervention. “Two people, who I barely knew, stepped up… and they presented me with an opportunity—that was more like an ultimatum—unless I was dead, that I better show up.”

    Moore accepted the help and was forever changed by the chance she was given. “It gave me a chance to redirect the course of my life, before I destroyed everything. Clearly they saw more in me than I saw in myself, and I’m so grateful, because without that opportunity… I wouldn’t be standing here today.”

    Sobriety is a point of pride for all three of Moore’s daughters as well.

    In a 2017 social media post, Rumer Willis, announced that she was six months sober. “It’s not something I planned on but after the long journey of getting here I can honestly say I have never been more proud of myself in my entire life,” the eldest wrote.

    This was followed by a similar announcement from Scout Willis, who a week later celebrated one year of sobriety. “I am meeting the best version of myself every day,” the middle sister wrote.

    And finally, Tallulah Willis shared that she overcame both a drinking problem and eating disorder. “I did not value myself, my life or my body and as such I was constantly punishing for not being enough,” the youngest wrote.

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