“I discovered that the path to the light was not in drowning my sorrows, but in facing them head on… in sobriety.”
Following the one-year anniversary of the horrific Manchester Arena bombing at the Ariana Grande concert on May 22, 2017, the pop star and the people close to her have opened up about how they have coped in the aftermath of the horrific attack that killed 22 people.
The pop star’s brother, Frankie Grande, a singer, dancer and YouTube personality, penned a heartfelt letter that he shared with People magazine, in which he described the pain and trauma that the attack caused, not only on the victims themselves, but on him and his family.
In his letter, he shares that he is now one-year sober, a decision he made after falling into a “very dark place” that he tried masking with drugs and alcohol.
“Today I am one year sober… and the gratitude that I feel in the face of this milestone is measureless. After the tragic events of Manchester, with the senseless loss of life and fear that came from knowing my family was unsafe and that I was completely powerless to protect them, I went to a very dark place with no tools to handle the feelings that came along with the devastation of the attack. I tried to pull myself out of the darkness by drinking and abusing prescribed drugs as I had done in the past for so many other reasons… but that only made the hole that I was trying to crawl out of even deeper.”
The 35-year-old Broadway performer went on to describe how his previous party-centric life had “turned into a nightmare where I never felt more alone.” This went on until Frankie finally reached a point where “living was just too painful” and decided to seek help.
Since then, life has been different for Frankie. “I am here today because with that help I discovered that the path to the light was not in drowning my sorrows, but in facing them head on… in sobriety,” he wrote.
His letter went on to inspire and encourage anyone to have hope, despite whatever personal hell they might be going through. “In fact, you can become STRONGER than you ever thought possible,” Frankie wrote. The performer said he’s never been happier with his decision to be sober.
“This decision to be sober is a lifetime decision. I live without needing a drink or a drug to change the way I feel or perceive my circumstances and outcomes,” he wrote. “I have repaired relationships I previously thought unsalvageable and I am living my best TRUEST life.”
“Music is supposed to be the safest thing in the world. I think that’s why it’s still so heavy on my heart every single day,” she said at the time. “I wish there was more that I could fix. You think with time it’ll become easier to talk about. Or you’ll make peace with it. But every day I wait for that peace to come and it’s still very painful.”